Holidays

My holidays are coming. I've planned for these since the day I step in Form 5, 5 Sarjana. I love the life I having now, although I still don't know drive and can't always go out. I've a lot of things need to chase up and do during these holidays. I'm glad that I'm finished my exam safety and non-worry. I've finished did the first of my plans, that is do my hair. Although I looked a bit aunty style, but I like it because it is my dream. And now I'm trying to continue with my second plan, learn car!!! Haha..

'While I never saw it coming, I shouldn't start to running', I'm listening this song when I'm typing this. I'd think back my previous life. I think that I've lost a lot of things while the time is keep walking. I've lost a lot of friends, (not included xxx). Others, I lost them, but it is normal for me, just like I can't meet them after graduated. All the wishes are not coming. It's just a lie.

Love. Ya, a lot. All around us. But not us. Or I should say, not mine. I not really know what is 'LOVE' meant by. Maybe just a stupid feel with a stupid guy, but that feel, is temporary. I hate it. Lonely, alone, nobody wants it. But a lot have to face it. During holidays, I learnt a lot of things. Many people taught me, reminded me, said me, scolded me or even explained to me. I'm appreciate the one who always help me, care me, taught me, and the other things they did to me. They helped me grow a lot.

I don't know what for I writing blog. Maybe I'm finding a way to release tomorrow tension. I want to take "Undang" exam tomorrow. It's quite hard! Even much harder than school's exam. Although you just need to read 500 questions from a small book, and answer it. And just answer by pressing answer not typing answer. But why I feel that it is easier to take any exam's Paper 2 in school compare with it. Maybe if I fail it I need to pay another RM35 to take the exam again, but in school is free. A hahahahaa xD

My holidays start from today! I'm free~~ Don't need to live in the dark, strict and full of lies life. I'm appreciating the holidays I'll be the most lazy in my whole life. Sometimes, I do hope that there is really the day after tomorrow, Doomsday after 3 years. I don't like to live with this Jiaxin in this life. It's sucks. Ugly, Low-confident, hate by people, lame, full of boring, talk shit and cock, nonsense... ... And live in a good family but with the presence of strictly "Mother". I hate this. I hate these!!!!!

Tired. Sleep. Byes!