Second day of New Year

2.16 a.m., while I just finished my magazine and continue with New Moon Novel that borrowed from my cousin. He messaged me. He sent a sentence with : "Sipek Pek Chek, sleep already?".

Firstly, I thought that he could send wrong message to me, because I remember that his new girlfriend name also start with "J". Maybe he press down key too fast and mistaken send to me. So I replied him : "What happen? Wrong message?". He was bad mood. He replied me :"I can't message with you is it?".

It makes me speechless. It is a miracle that he will send message to me. He was argued with his girlfriend. Again with the problem of "Jealous". I chat with him for a few minutes, I guess so. He asked me that why I'm so understand the problem about jealous? I answered because too many similar cases around me. He suddenly pop out a sentence :"You not like me meh? So fast no like already ar? Sad Sad..". Gosh, how come this kind of thing will happen? Although is a joke. But I don't know how to respond with this question. I should be didn't like him anymore. But why I'm still single? Of course is I couldn't find the one suitable me. Of course it is!! When he ask this, I stunned. I can't differentiate that I'm telling the truth or lying to myself, or even him.

Ahh.. I admit that I love him for a long period. But it should be past tense. Now shouldn't be like this. Stunned for awhile. And finally I replied him :" Like you wouldn't have any conclusion". Maybe this answer make him more bad mood. But I confirmed that this would be the best answer for me and him. Maybe he is just joking and I take it as the real. When facing him, I don't know how to differentiate serious and joke. Hey, he is having a lot of girlfriend after me. Why should I keep dreaming and abusing myself? I really hate this kind of Jiaxin. It's disgusting.

I hope that I could go out scream in front of a big sea, sing K with all the friends, or even hang out play at some Pulau-Pulau. I just hope to forget all the things I facing before. I've promised myself that I'll having a new life in this new year. So I won't be beaten down by this small frustration. GAMBATEH JX!!!