2.Persistent sadness, the feeling of being "empty", and anxious.
3.Changes in sleep patterns (insomnia)
4.Appetite or weight changes
5.Irritability or restlessness.
6.Concentration problems.
7.Fear of failure.
8.Unexplained aches and pains.
9.Frequent thoughts of suicide or death.
10.Inability to control spending or eating.
11.Feeling worthless or ignored.(all the time)
These are what he shared last night. He has such errmm.. Illness. And me too.
Am I turned to these because of him?
I don't know.
I started all these illness since this month. Maybe because I didn't work? Or I would like to challenge something new?
I don't know.
What I feel right now just a word. SAD.
I'm sad, sad and sad.. Why?
I don't know.
Why I become like this?
I don't know.
When can I recover and back to normal?
I don't know.
I saw he posted something.
A trailer. Uhm, make me feel his world is really big, and nice.
Milkshake heartbreak
This story is about friends who looking for an everlasting friendship. How their life takes a change after falling in love with the right or wrong person? What if we cross the line of friendship and become more than "just friends?" While it seems very confusing and it might be ruin the eternity friendship. Is there such thing as TRUE friendship?
His world, now including movies, musics, photographs and freedom. But he is lonely.
My world, only having, alone and sadness.
Ya it's true I have thoughts of suicide, just to end my life.
But I've told you, I scare of die, that kind of die. I don't want the people beside me sad because what I've did. I don't want regret anymore.
I'm not suicide because of love. (Clearly indicated here.)
There are many things all of you don't know. It's kinda hard to split out.
Some of them thought that you're happy with your life, thought you're in good conditions in everything. But the truth are, I'm not! I'm just act.
I hate to be like this. But I use to. Why sometimes, human does need feeling? And why must having suck feels?
Before and before, I feel those are stupid who want to suicide.
B, and him, try to suicide before. And the same, I scolded them before. Without knowing why. Maybe because I watched too much movies. They taught me that "At least try to scold even they'll hate you. As long as you can stop them from die".
I was so wrong. Now I understand their feeling. Even if you try to wake them up from their dream, you're failed.
They won't listen what you said OR what you explain.
These will only make them feel that you're disgusting. Hate you! Nasty!
So if there are friends have thought of die, don't advice them. What 'How about your families friends?', 'What about your dreams?', 'Why you want to do so?'..
All these are rubbish.! Nonsense. Nobody will hears you! Because they're 'poisoning'.
Maybe support them will be the best.
I wonder is it their thoughts same with me?
Although in front of friends, families or other external environment they look normal. But actually they're not. If there are silent, silence.. They'll start all over again.
If it is true, this is me. I'm now look like these. Is it I'm a failure?
The feeling of sad, suck, anger keep turning and dancing in your mind. Do you felt these before? Share with me if you feel so before, or maybe now.
Thanks Melissa for the song. Quite nice =] I like it..
His world, now including movies, musics, photographs and freedom. But he is lonely.
My world, only having, alone and sadness.
Ya it's true I have thoughts of suicide, just to end my life.
But I've told you, I scare of die, that kind of die. I don't want the people beside me sad because what I've did. I don't want regret anymore.
I'm not suicide because of love. (Clearly indicated here.)
There are many things all of you don't know. It's kinda hard to split out.
Some of them thought that you're happy with your life, thought you're in good conditions in everything. But the truth are, I'm not! I'm just act.
I hate to be like this. But I use to. Why sometimes, human does need feeling? And why must having suck feels?
Before and before, I feel those are stupid who want to suicide.
B, and him, try to suicide before. And the same, I scolded them before. Without knowing why. Maybe because I watched too much movies. They taught me that "At least try to scold even they'll hate you. As long as you can stop them from die".
I was so wrong. Now I understand their feeling. Even if you try to wake them up from their dream, you're failed.
They won't listen what you said OR what you explain.
These will only make them feel that you're disgusting. Hate you! Nasty!
So if there are friends have thought of die, don't advice them. What 'How about your families friends?', 'What about your dreams?', 'Why you want to do so?'..
All these are rubbish.! Nonsense. Nobody will hears you! Because they're 'poisoning'.
Maybe support them will be the best.
I wonder is it their thoughts same with me?
Although in front of friends, families or other external environment they look normal. But actually they're not. If there are silent, silence.. They'll start all over again.
If it is true, this is me. I'm now look like these. Is it I'm a failure?
The feeling of sad, suck, anger keep turning and dancing in your mind. Do you felt these before? Share with me if you feel so before, or maybe now.
Thanks Melissa for the song. Quite nice =] I like it..
'I'm all alone and I need you now' - Lady Antebellum
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