A day again

I was..
I don't know.
I chat with Steven Ong about him.
I told him about him.
He again, tells me he is not a good guy.
I will meet a better guy soon when I'm form 6.
I hope so.
But I scare and worry that I can't.

Ish, I feel like no mood for talking shit here.
Don't want write already!
Don't know what to write!
I've no idea.

I found a funny jokes.

You know why women starts with ‘W’…
because all questions start with “W”.. !
Who ?
Why ?
What ?
When ?
Which ?
Whom ?
Where ?
&
Finally Wife..!!!

Continue my essay for today at 1.36am since the mood is back.
I showed my post to Steven since he asked me why I was so emo recently.
He read some of it. Nobody can stand for long and many posts continuously right?
So I just asked him to ask me in Msn.
He said I'm too serious already.
Kena racun xD.
I didn't tell Steven this because he is facing his own problems and STPM.
I don't want to make him worry my things.
I try to help him when he is in problems. And his problems can't be solve easily.
That's why I'm not going to tell him my stories.

And why I choose to tell him now?
Because he asked me :"What happen to you?", not the first time. There is few times and I was just replied him : "Nothing, just wrote it for fun."
Feel so sorry when lying to him. And finally I decide to tell him all my staffs.
And the same, he told me that I know it is impossible and not good, why I'm still continuing all these things about him?
I'm uncontrollable on this staff.. I don't know what shall I do too.

I always laugh on myself. Almost everyday I laugh.
How come I'll like a guy just because of he has a better look, better skills on musics and videos, better skills on fashion senses, better....
How come I will forget what I've promised myself that I would not like someone who studies not really well?
HOW COME?!!
Is it love is blind?
I won't admit that I love him. I'm just like him, secretly.

I feel that most of his friends not really like him because of his disposition.
But don't know why, I feel he is kinda gentleman among all the boys I know until today.
Maybe my world is kinda small and narrow, that's why I don't know there are a lot of guys better than him in the outside world.
There are so many qualifications for me like a guy.
80% of those qualifications are including the outlook of the guy.
He is the first guy, I feel best among the all.
He is the first guy, ugly picture and faces of him for others, but for me I like it. It's nice and good.
He is the first guy, makes me like all his pictures and take as handphone wallpapers and blogger pictures.
He is the first guy, ....

That's why I feel what a pity if I just give up like that?
But I'll as what I say because I know what "Impossible" meant by!

You know what? I gave him Eirene's skype name. His Msn reply is shocked me. Because his words colour is same with me. Ya Gold colour. Just, I'm light gold and he is dark gold. Kinda funny joke right?

-Jascxin-