I really hate Form 6, because it is very hard? It is rules-full.
Maybe my previous school loved me too much, protected me too much too. It makes me hard to suit myself to the new environment. I heard many of them said about college life.
I love college life. You know? Rules-less, freedom, non pressure..
I think before, I believe I can pay back the loan after I grow up. But I have no ambition. That's why I choose form 6. You know what? I don't know
I really don't like form 6. But what shall I do? Any coach can helps me with this? I hope I wasn't too late yet to know everything.
Maybe the class will be start at tomorrow. I'm so scare. Scare that I can't follow everything. It's a challenge. I don't know. I just hope I can get back what life I had before in SMKTI. I just want study with normal mood but not tension mood, and of course rules-full life.
8pm, I went out for dinner with parents and Uncle William. I told mother I want to go to Seberang Jaya Form 6. Guess what is the result? Uncle William + His girlfriend + Father + Mother = Super attack.
They attacked me, shot me. My tears were almost dropped out. Luckily I 'Kek' diao. Why my tears are always uncontrollable? I hate this. I just share my opinions that I hate rules. What I get back were all the disagreements.
They said : "Universities are having more rules than Form 6. And just a little rules why should you suffer here and there? Because your previous school is too sucks, that's why you can't get into it. And just rules are strict, it is not a reason to escape all this suffer. Now even some rules also you can't suit it, after that how you gonna go for university and work huh? If you don't like this university, then change to another. Change, change and change better no need study. Working also the same. This one not suitable that one not suitable, then better no need work."
You know? I stopped from reply all of them because my tears ... Ahh I just forced myself not to drop it out. Because it is public place. Ahh, memalukan aje!
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Ivan wrote a post about me. Yesterday he told me :"Jx ah, don't so Emo lah."
I replied him :" I'm not emo because of this lar." (*this -> form 6)
He thought I'm agonizing with my ambition and form 6 I think.
Yes I'm, but I'm not emo because of this.
And I not really want to let him know my blogger. So I try my best to keep my blog from him.
Everything become private since the day I start to write something about 'Him'. I hope to share with everybody. But I know somebody's mouth, even though I asked not to say it in front of me. But for Ivan, I know he will. He will say in the Msn, ask this and that, say something bad about him, or me. For real life, he will say that I'm childish, don't know what LOVE mean by.. Ahh I don't like someone says me like that. So I won't give my blogger to him. Sorry Ivan.
I have 2 ideas. First, I would make 2 blogger. 1 is to share to all, another would be privacy.
Second, I'll lock this blogger up and no more share to anyone except the friends I believe always. Or I just tell them I've quit from my blogger life.
Somehow, I don't like to share my blog with him/her. But he/she will just follows you wherever you go. I'm kinda hate this very much. But what can I do? I won't say this to him/her. He/she should know this well. That's why I feel lock it up will be better.
But this is still on the way. I'm not locking it right now.
Now days I don't really have the time to think about him and I force myself not to think about him. Yesterday have a chat with Eevon. Eevon told me he is getting handsome and handsome, Rinkie and Eevon are always the best xD. Because both of them are the only 2 praising him a lot xD.
Eevon listened his song and replied me :"Wei!"
Jx :"Pe?"
Eevon :"Really nice one leh!"
Jx :"Ah bo? Mai siao siao xD"
Eevon :"Give me his skype."
Jx :"Don't want! xD"
Jx :"Eh, I heard people said his dad is Asadi boss leh xD."
Eevon :"Real or not one? If like that I'll hantar myself to him already."
Sei Eevon, rampas laki dengan I kah?
You know the feeling? Very happy when being praise by people. Although it's not myself.
Well anything, I have few days didn't see him no matter Facebook, Msn or Skype. If my information is correct, he is working now. And I just act don't know about it.
He is working and I can take this opportunity not to in touch with him. This would be the best way among the all. Hope I can forget this soon =X
-Jascxin-
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